Your vacation

Running away is always your goal, so one great thing to have on the horizon at all times is a vacation. You should make sure you plan enough of your vacation beforehand so that you have transportation to the destination and back home, but everything else about your trip should just be sort of hopes and fears. You should make sure to tell people that you'll definitely go to whatever museum thing they recommend you do while you're there, just so you'll have the opportunity to feel bad about the fact that you never even tried to do that.

Going out of the country is always preferable, because for a few moments during your trip, or for several days, you'll concoct schemes to stay in that country that involve all kinds of fraud and shit. You should briefly consider just becoming a weird outlaw living off the land, or a panhandler with a knapsack on a stick, and then realize that you'd die so fast in that situation that you'd be better off selling your body for money. You should start to wonder what it takes to get into the prostitution biz. Do you need a pimp, or is that more of a suggestion? Maybe some good, sturdy hooking shoes? Since you're new to this, you're going to have the novelty thing going for you, and you'll probably get a ton of business in the beginning. You'll probably also make friends with a scrappy hooker who seems like she has a heart of gold but ends up backstabbing you at some point, probably with a knife. This will give you street cred, though. Which is like regular credit except easier to get with a bad FICO score. Maybe you'd eventually meet a generous John who comes around pretty frequently and never makes you have sex, but instead asks you to talk about your life, but really you're sort of doing this because of the sex, which is something you'll awkwardly realize one moonless night on the corner and then never think about again. But you'll need the money, so you'll do this "talk" thing.

And why will you need the money? To run away, obviously. But this time it's running away from your life of danger and hooking, and that's what you really want. You want a reason to run away that makes sense and isn't just that your life is meaningless and comfortable and suffocating you with its lack of apocalypse. Also, you really want a reason to finally wear those hooker shoes.